The title of this post is from one of my favorite songs by Alanis Morissette. I’ve had this song in my music collection for a very long time and I’ve played it hundreds of times, but just the other day the lyrics hit me like they’ve never hit me before.
I found myself not only listening with a greater intensity and focus, but I also found myself crying.
Yes, I cry easily, but this time I was crying in the middle of the gym, in the middle of my workout. What the hell?
That I would be good even if I did nothing That I would be good even if I got the thumbs down That I would be good if I got and stayed sick That I would be good even if I gained ten pounds That I would be fine even if I went bankrupt That I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth That I would be great if I was no longer queen That I would be grand if I was not all knowing That I would be loved even when I numb myself That I would be good even when I am overwhelmed That I would be loved even when I was fuming That I would be good even if I was clingy That I would be good even if I lost sanity That I would be good whether with or without you.
Here’s what the hell…
It’s not that I don’t know how sometimes unaccepting I can be of myself. Or how I can fall into the vicious cycle of feeling small and showing up small. Not to mention the many trips I’ve made to Comparison Land. I get it. Been there, done that. Have the t-shirt and the tiara.
I’m work in progress.
Here’s the thing, for the first time, as I was listening to the lyrics I got the message LOUD and FRICKING clear. I don’t have to keep applying pressure to be the very best version of me.
When I’m happy When I’m sad When I’m being a cranky bitch When I’m excited When I’m overwhelmed When I’m feeling tired and maybe a little bit lazy When I’m being creative When I’m being loving to myself and to others When I’m being negative and judgmental When I’m having fun….
I am good.
Even at my messiest moments, I’m being the very best version of me when I’m being me.
Please don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying that I don’t always try to grow, learn from my mistakes, and let go of behaviors that don’t serve. I do, BUT here’s what I realized in listening to those lyrics more closely… know that I’m good as I am at all times.
So, my friends, here’s my challenge to you…
Stop the pressure and know that in every moment you are good, you always have been and you always will be.